Tiring but inspiring

One day I’ll fall head over heels. I really think so. I don’t think it is now. Maybe when I am a little older and a little wiser. When I have grown mentally. Who knows. Everyone can tell that I am growing and changing every year.

Another internship is done. It was one of the hardest. I kept raising my voice and telling kids to leave my classroom. It was exhausting. Luckily, I also got the opportunity to teach and actually get a few kids inspired. Interested in reading or using Grammarly.

New beginnings. Starting as a volunteer at the library. New therapy. Starting bachata lessons. Cooking a lot for myself and others. Trying new recipes. Playing scrabble and others games. Started kickboxing again.

Living with my cat is also new in a way. He is 24/7 at my place and he even sleeps on my bed now. I don’t have a door to my bedroom… But I do appreciate having him around. He likes to sit close to me and I like to play with him too. His presence is sometimes already really nice.

Buying all kinds of new furniture and second-hand furniture. Also, doing a lot of the chores all by myself. Such as fixing the dishwasher or the sink. Taking care of the litterbox. It’s just all extra chores I didn’t have before. But I guess I can be proud of doing it all and getting some help here and there. Furthermore, I am selling books, tables, shoes and so on. Trying to make some space too. I gave some clothes to a second-hand shop. I might earn just a little there.

It has been a tiring journey living by myself. But it has also given me a lot of space. Space in a physical sense but also choosing who to be around which in turn causes more relaxation in my head.

I hope your on a good journey. I hope you are having a great time wherever you are and until next time! X


I haven’t written in a while. I have decided to give some reflection a go today. It’s a new year. I don’t believe that I have changed that much. Not in these few days but a lot of things have changed. A year ago I left to London and now I am in my own place. After living in dorms for about 11 years, I have finally made the decision to live on my own. I really wanted to leave because I didn’t click with this girl who was new in our building but I could’ve chosen for another dorm but apparently I felt that it was time to live by myself. A more spacious place. I have been fantasising about this for so long and I think apart from a bath tub the dream has come true. I didn’t imagine living in the city centre but it is very convenient. Maybe cool but I don’t really care about that. I like that everything is nearby and that I can be there in five minutes or even quicker.

I have done a pottery class. A workshop. It was a lot of fun. I didn’t expect it to be so much fun. The instructor was fun. I had a funny friend with me and there was this other interested woman who asked a lot of questions. She was about our age which was nice. My friend isn’t able to do the full course now but maybe we will do it later in the year.

I have met a very nice neighbour and she might take salsa or bachata lessons with me. We enjoyed tea together on several occasions and we had a nice walk with my former housemate on New Year’s day.

I have decided to become a volunteer at the library. I am going to help others with language. I am going to teach Dutch. It is interesting how I am always going back and forth between these two languages. English and Dutch.

I will be starting a new internship this February. I will be teaching English at a very creative school in my city. I am excited. I only have to do four more portfolios and then I am graduated. I actually passed all of my exams. My Cambridge exams and a very big exam covering materials over more than two years of study and additional materials. For the upcoming half year I have decided to focus on one portfolio.

I have also decided on kickboxing. It is so much fun. I really enjoy spending time with my trainer. He is always giving you a riddle and making jokes. We enjoy each other’s company. Plus, I hope it will be good for all of my muscles.

I don’t think all of these hobbies or sports have that much to do with the New Year. I am always changing it up and trying new things. Kickboxing is familiar. I have been going to salsa evenings for free for a while but the lessons would be new. Pottery class later in the year will be totally new. As being a volunteer and a few mindfulness trainings given by my university. I did the same in London and Bristol though. I followed a few yoga/mindfulness lesson that were given by theuniversity/school. I might look up some additional lessons in my city.

I have to look at some tests my students made. So, I have to go. I hope you are having a great time wherever you are and until next time! X