The Christmas thought is one of love. There were even wars that ended during Christmas time. I guess the idea is that Christmas brings people together. It can feel like a lot of pressure but it can also be really nice. If you are lucky and sometimes you have a bit of luck in your own hands.

I got a Christmas card from my neighbour, also from a few others and for some reason I feel very obligated to reply to the neighbour and or neighbours possibly. Maybe I just want us all to feel home. If I can find the time, I’ll look for some Christmas cards in all the stuff my boyfriend and I collected throughout the years. Stuff and more stuff, haha.

Today my boyfriend and I will be cooking. We will try out a recipe that we might serve during New Year’s Eve and for another late dinner with family. I suppose it’s a late Christmas dinner in January. I haven’t really defined it. Oh well, we don’t need to, I guess.

Maybe it is also nice to be an adult. You have a lot of responsibilities and within family and friend groups, I am always the oldest and I feel very responsible. But well, it is nice to have some responsibility. Some control. It’s nice to ask people to come over, to host. To make other people’s days and to have some fun yourself.

I really enjoyed my birthday, we played a game of hints/charades in a way and we did it in English since my childhood friend came over and even though he has been living in the Netherlands for the past two years, he doesn’t speak English. We enjoyed chips with Dutch mayonnaise and laughter and hugging the pets.

Maybe life can be really nice during winter time. It’s supposed to be a record of 20 days not seeing the sun in the Netherlands and a few days ago, there the sun was. I’ve bought vitamine D pills. Got to be that responsible adult that takes care of themselves ha. Well, well, I am trying to do well.

And I guess I am. Even though I am stressed and really have to get used to a new situation by living with a lot of other beings, it is really a form of togetherness I might have dreamed of and hoped for. I can adjust and I will be fine with all the new tasks and now we can share responsibilities since we are both functioning adults hahaha. Yes, it’s a lovely romance. A crazy household with too many pets that don’t go together and furniture that doesn’t always go together and a mix of tableware but we enjoy each others company and are trying to make the best out of it. I love the other beings that I am living with ❤

And I wish you love.

Take care wherever you are and until next time!

I’m under a soft blanket lying on my big blue sofa. It’s nice and cosy, especially with the music I put on. Yesterday evening was a lovely evening. Hans and I enjoyed some fries, which can be considered my favourite food and I am also really starting to enjoy the Dutch kroket. Mmm! After that we spontaneously decided to meet up with some friends and enjoy free live music. There were also dance performances and cheerleader performances and a beautiful performance with my favourite music from Yann Tiersen which became famous because of the film Amelie. My favourite movie. A lot of favourites that evening for me. We could easily go home at a very nice and early time and enjoy some play time with our cat and enjoy some crisps with a funny series afterwards. A great evening!

Christmas time has come early for us. I am happy that such creative things are organized in our beautiful tinie tiny European city. It is such a warm city with beautiful old buildings. I feel safe and at home here. I am so glad I didn’t have to move. I am really happy my loving partner chose to live with me and living for all the years he has been on earth in his city he has moved for me. He must be truly in love with me. Haha, I know he is. And I love him so. PUKE! haha

I am wondering how the rest of the world is doing? For some Christmas time is hard and let me tell you it can also make me nervous. How do I please everyone? How do I see everyone I need to see? Some years it was me wondering if I was alone. Some years it was all fun and games, some years it was a bit boring. One year was a year I couldn’t meet expectations. But I am not as ‘my little sibling’/my former housemate who during the summer longs for Christmas time. I am happy for the little one that there is so much appreciation for Christmas time and they expand their decorations each year and apparently it is truly a time of celebration and a warm get together for ‘my sibling’.

For me it also feels a little bit more complicated. One year I went to the grave of my mothers, never told my family and didn’t want to mess with the atmosphere and wanted to keep everyone happy. I couldn’t though, because spontaneously going to the graveyard meant that the lasagna wasn’t cooked yet. So, everyone had to wait. Somehow this year her grave is calling me. Hi, Frances, will you come and have a talk? I must miss her. Somehow, I wish I could introduce her to my partner. Maybe we will go. Maybe I will introduce him. Maybe we will go another time.

For now, I really enjoyed yesterday evening and there are festivities every evening from now in Zwollywood and so I hope that I will visit our Winter Festival at least once more and truly enjoy my time surrounded by other creatives.

I hope you are doing well wherever you are and until next time! X

Take care x