I am just so damn tired. I am cleaning my room and trying to clean everything in my head. But if you try to clean everything at once, you become very tired. I think most of my physical pain is stress related. My legs aren’t the same height which causes pain but the stress makes it ten times worse. It’s time to take some me time. I just went swimming. I don’t feel better but it didn’t get worse which I felt coming. The tears were coming but for a change I held them back.

I wish I could say I’m doing better. Everything is better once you are back home. Well, it’s not. And I knew that. You just take your feelings wherever you go. Angry, sad, scared. Luckily, I am also happy and sometimes hopeful. Appreciative. But I really need to take care of myself.

Good news: I managed to speak well and motivate my portfolio. Got the marks back and I nailed it. I might be able to do my study quicker than normal. Let’s see how it goes. That was such good news though that I cried and afterwards played we are the champions.

I am also surrounded by friends which is nice. It is nice to be in the company of people who know you well and you can joke around with. Or a friend who celebrates that you finished your portfolio and that he got a new job.

Life is life. Let’s see how I feel next week. I hope you are doing well wherever you are. Until next time! X