It’s not such a warm day today. Well compared to 30 degrees, it isn’t. A nice 24. It might rain. It’s cloudy and the birds are enjoying the seeds I gave them in a bowl on my table outside in my tinie tiny garden. If I look a bit further I see the common garden. It is beautiful filled with pink flowers.

I just read something which left me restless. It’s an interesting book called ‘Becoming myself’. But I just put it away and watched a funny video of Taskmaster where Sue Perkins has to paint and answer questions at the same time. The conversation became a bit absurd which is highly amusing.

But yeah it doesn’t take away the restless feeling. Maybe I am confused about what feminine should be and what masculine should be. Maybe I feel like I should be different and people around me should be different. That I should work out more. Maybe I should read that book that a non binary friend gave me. Maybe I already gave it back. It was called something like ‘Testosterone T-rex’.

Maybe I should just finish the book ‘Becoming myself’ first. I also feel like I need a new hobby. Maybe it’s dancing again? Which isn’t new. Maybe it’s going to the gym? Maybe I should just relax more. Maybe occasionally go for a run. Do some yoga at home or at the yoga spot. I hoped to relax while reading but that usually comes from a comic book rather than from serious literature. Same goes for watching a drama compared to the comical ‘Taskmaster’.

Well… There is some thinking to do and some relaxing too. It’s summertime!

I hope you are doing well wherever you are. Until next time! X