I feel a bit unsettled. At least I had some sleep. That’s good for a person. I guess you sleep and your subconscious helps you process the day. Well, I met a very cute baby yesterday. Parents were tired since they had to feed him every three hours and change his nappies and he just slept a little less than normally. He also cried when he wanted a cuddle.

Maybe as adults we don’t cuddle enough. Only when we say hi and goodbye and otherwise you only have one romantic partner usually here in the Netherlands to cuddle with. Unless you have several relationships. But I think we underestimate human touch. I’ll touch someone’s arm to show that I’m enthusiastic about something, to get someone’s attention or to reassure someone. I don’t even think about it.

Maybe one day I’d like to live in a community where we share food and stories. I’d like a group. I miss my group. My housemates I used to have. I still see them but we don’t live together anymore. I’d like to find a place where I share food, stories, maybe a hug. Yes. Well, let’s see!

I have a lot to do and a lot of deadlines and I don’t think it’s completely what it should be but getting very close. But I guess it doesn’t have to be perfect. Neither do I. Let’s see what happens and in the meantime I do what I can.

I think I should be more direct but at the same time a friend told me she isn’t that direct but on the other hand children shouldn’t come up with all the choices, as parents, they should too. Otherwise they will tell you they want something else and you will have created that situation. I guess she is right and that means I’ve got some work to do. But yeah I guess sometimes things can be urgent and they just have to happen or you can learn how to set boundaries throughout your life. No need to be perfect. Others aren’t either! We aren’t and that’s okay. Take it one day at a time.

I hope you are doing well wherever you are and until next time! X