Gotta keep on writing. I made myself a promise. That is to write no matter what. I will do a year of writing. Hopefully somewhere within this year I’ll be graduated. It will become 2024. I’ll vote soon. I might see ‘my’ cat from time to time and well a lot of things will happen that I just have no idea of. That’s life. It happens. You adapt. You grow, you learn. I suppose I try to. I am looking at sociology online. As if I am taking classes in sociology. It’s very interesting. It’s mostly about differences between people and about empathy.

For the rest I’m working on my school project. I’m reading about speaking in English and how to learn new vocabulary. I am also still tutoring. I love to help others one on one with language. I actually also like to prepare a creative lesson and get feedback. My last lesson was on creative writing. Some students absolutely loved it!

For the rest I have been very anxious. I am terrified of my deadline for school and because I am so terrified, it becomes harder to enjoy other things. But somehow I keep on showing up and I try to take care of myself by cooking for others or others cooking for me, eating fruit here and there and also while letting food be delivered choosing it to be a curry. I also mentally try to take care of myself by calling a therapist and we also have a thing called the listening line in the Netherlands where a volunteer will listen to you and might even give you some advise. Physically I try to kickboks every week and do salsa every week. I don’t always succeed but at least I try. Weirdly, I sometimes really critisize myself, but just now, I’m thinking to myself, I’m doing okay.

I am not dating whatsoever. I’m just not interested at the moment. I mean very very very slightly. I just find my school projects much more important at the moment and I don’t want any man showing up and jeopordizing that and how I am feeling. I know myself and I feel like there might be room for dating later in life.

While I’m writing this, I occasionally eat a strawberry, I’ve got the candlelight on and I am listening to upbeat music. Voodoo Babe – Never Dull is currently playing. I honestly never know what I am listening to. It’s just a vibe. VIBING!

I don’t have to move. That’s a relief. I can stay where I am. I guess at least for another year. That’s good. Hopefully even longer. I think I am good where I am at. My neighbour wants to move to Amsterdam. I hope he really does it. It had been a wish for a long time for him. Well, we’ll see what the future will bring us. It’s not set in stone. I guess I am flexible and I do take on things that are healthy for me.

And…. I am turning 30! this year. Big thirty. I guess I still feel the same. The changes are gradual. Grey hair everywhere whahahhaa. A little grey is okay. Dutchies will get that joke. I do enjoy English humor too. I watch Taskmaster. I watch many British shows with comedians. I also watch American comedians online. Soon, I’ll be going to one live. Just a Dutch one. You never know, I might enjoy it. I am also going all the way to Eindhoven to watch a light show. Furthermore, this weekend an Italian friend is coming over. No idea what we will be doing. Might still need to get tickets to a silent disco. Any tips on what to do in Zwollywood?

Hope you are doing well wherever you are and until next time! x